Thoughts.....

So Im new to this site, Blogspot. Blog.......why does that sound yucky lol. Anyway, This is my first "blog" on here. So where should I start? Im just a regular person with a few interesting interests including music, body piercings, tattoos, art (drawing, painting.....) and corsetry.

My weekend was all right all except for the call from my recent ex. I broke up with him......a couple months ago and he keeps calling me and leaving me messages. Before anyone gets any thoughts I didnt break up with him because he wasnt fun or I didnt love him anymore. He was very fun and I loved him very much. I still cry when I hear his voice on my voicemail (sad isnt it?). I was just tired of being left alone all the time while he went out with his friends, got drunk and smoked God only knows what. For a full week he ignored me because he was busy getting trashed and he only saw me as a ball and chain. I didnt mind him hanging out with his friends I just wanted him to stay out of trouble, ya know. And then he started messing around with this very beautiful girl (yes, I will admit she was very pretty). As much as it hurt I broke up with him for my heart's sake. I was tired of hurting and crying and being alone. A month after breaking up with him.....after he blew me off to be with this other girl......after hearing nothing from him he finally calls me.....saying he misses me. Im sorry, but I cant go back to that. Every weekend he will call and leave a voice message which I try to delete before I can really hear it. I really wish he would just leave me alone and move on. He will only end up hurting himself and he is only keeping my wounds open. As soon as I think I can get on with my life there he is again and this is why my weekends usually arent as relaxing as I would like them to be. Four 10 hour days on concrete....standing in one place......I need to relax not be upset.
Even if I have a rat on my back I need to move on. Im still looking for someone. Im not sure how long its going to take to find them, but Im sure I will come across someone who will treat me right. And thats my thoughts.