Pretty Bird

Prett bird struts a plume of gold.
Shes a gorgeous sight for all to behold.
Beauty is her's and with grace she's endowed.
Breast thrust out, head high shes looks proud.
Pretty bird sings poison into everyone's ear.
Behind that candy smile is only a cruel sneer.
Her words are like acid to burn the soul.
Listen to her venom and it will soon take it's toll.
Lovely she is, but this bird is tainted.
Her sizzling, gold feathers with toxin is painted.
She'll leave your heart burnt and your soul scarred
For this bird's own soul is completely marred.

Its been quite a while/ Against Pornography

Yeah, it definitely been a while. Not much has been going on. Just the same as usual: work. My beau and I are now broke up. He has decided to remain friends for the time being. The past couple months have been hard on him it seems. He has been dealing with personal issues and needed time to sort everything out (how much time? I dont know. I hope he hurries, because I miss him!). I didnt want to looses him completely nor him I so we are just friends right now and things seem to be doing good.
Im sure you noticed the "/Against Pornography" in the title? I was standing at work today thinking (as I have nothing else to do while Im pressing buttons). Ive always thought about this, but never actually typed or written out my thoughts. All my life Ive been made fun of, laughed at and insulted because of my "flat chest". And I am sure that there are many other small-breasted/flast chested women out there who have experienced the same treatment. I was out sometime last month with my boy friend (the one mentioned above) and his friends and we happened into Spencer's. In the Spencer's shop was a selection of posters showing nearly nude women with these gigantic breasts. My boyfriend being the "boob man" that he is stops and looks at each poster one by one. I have no problem with him looking at these posters. If its what he likes, he, why not. In a book I read it said that looking/watching porn or anything porn-like with you man is good bonding time so I figured I would hang around and look. After a few posters and seeing him so(......I dont know.....he just had "that" look) I began to feel.....i dont know. Upset, sad, angry with myself, insignificant. And then him talking about big breasts off and on with his friend the rest of the evening didnt help. I was depressed the rest of that evening and half of the next day at work. Well, after him asking over and over what was wrong I finally told him and he said he was sorry. I had to explain to him as much as I like bigger breasts (not saying I swing "that way" and not the full blown, ginormous ones you see in the posters, movies and magazines) and how femmenine they look it makes me hate myself and feel depressed and unfemmenine (any other women out there feel this way?).
Where Im going is: The porn industry today features these beautiful women with extremely large breasts (most of those breasts are so huge it seems one would get swollowed by the clevage). Porn has given a lot of men the misconception that all women should have huge breasts. And not only this, but it has also given some men the misconception that women like to have it with a man with a huge, monsterous looking penis (take my ex for example). So we have the flat chested women feeling bad and some of the "not so endowed" men feeling bad. Some time ago I was looking through google for mesh bras when I came across vintage/antique pictures of natural women wearing a mesh-type shirt or dress. These woman were natural shaped, had a little meat and were small breasted. I thought these women were the most beautiful aphrodities Ive ever seen. So much more beautiful than what the porn industry is showing now. Then I thought "What if the porn industry started showing more natural looking women? Maybe a little meat. Some natural looking breasts and not so over exagerated?". I know some may disagree with me, but I think people need some exposure to the more natural look. A little meat is okay. Smaller breasts is okay. A normal size penis is okay. I think more natural looking bodies would be a great thing.

Its been a while....

Sorry guys. Its been a while since Ive been on here. Ive been busy lately with work, stuff around the house and a new beau. He is a doll baby. Its kind of weird though......Im used to dating guys my age or older. This one is actually 19 (3 years younger than me) he doesnt really act like it though. Sometimes he even seems like a male version of me.....we just kinda think of some of the same things and are into some of the same things. He is really nice though so Im hoping it works out well. We have been seeing each other for a month and everything is good so far.
I have been doing a little research online about how to tell a male snake from a female. I guess there is a visual exam, popping and probing. I dont know any vet places around here that do reptiles, nor am I too keen on the idea of the "popping" technique (I really dont want to hurt orange-blossom) so I just did a visual and I think I may have a female! Which is cool because orange-blossom just sounds too feminine for a male lol. I really want to get my hands on a male and do some breeding. Ive been wanting to start a corn snake "farm", but I dont know if I will every get around to doing it.
Work has been going okay. One of the biggest stresses was fired. He was just doing things that he didnt need to be doing, he took off too many times. He had been warned many times, but I guess he thought that they would just let him off. He was caught twice in the back of the factory smoking and talking on his phone when he wasnt suppossed to be and they fired him because he was written up too many times for that. The supervisor seems to be in a much better mood lately since the "stress" is gone. Actually we all are.

Okay. Here it is :)

I decided to go with a red rose instead of a black one.

I could shoot myself though. I made the appointment for around 12:30 and went down to the studio......or the old location where Im used to going and noticed that they had relocated. So I went back home, called the studio's new number, appologised and got directions to the studios new location. The tattoo guy was really nice about it and laughed about it.

So here is my new tattoo.

A new tattoo in mind

Its been a little while since I got a tattoo so Ive made an appointment to get another one this weekend (tommorrow actually). Im planning on getting a rose tattooed on my chest.......not down by my breasts. It will be up closer to my collar bone. It will look close to the rose at the bottom of my blog page except it will be red with green leaves. Hopefully the tattoo guy can make it look close to a black rose since Ive always loved black roses so much. I saw a beautiful bouquet of them at Wal-Mart a month or two ago and they looked absolutely gorgeous with their black and red pettals that looked like velvet. I had to touch them to see if they were real! So that is what Im getting tattooed on the right side of my chest and maybe when I get the extra money I will have the other side of my chest done. Im also working on another oil painting. Im painting my little dog laying on a red colored blanket with a purple florol print curtain kind of draping to one side. Im not sure about the main back ground behind the dog though. I was thinking a cream color because it would look good with the reds and purples, but my dog is a creamy-apricot color and he kind of blends in with the background. Mum suggested gray, but I dont know how good that would look with other colors. Maybe I should just do the background black lol.

Blue, black and purple

Yeah, Im looking at this bruise on my knee from about.......2-3 weeks ago and it still looks nasty. It was a big bruise though and I did hit my knee pretty hard. What happened? Well, I was walking behind my machine at work and I just happened to nitice a spider walking across the floor right in front of my foot. It was not little spider. It was pretty good size! So I did the "OMG! A SPIDER! dance" (screaming and very quick foot work to move out of it's way). One of my co-wokers came up to see what was wrong and I poited at it and said "kill it!" several times.....Okay before I go any further you have to understand that I am deathly terriffied of spiders. If I see one I will sit on the other side of the room under a blanket, panicking and throwing things at it until someone comes and kills it. If no one is there I have to force myself to go at it with a shoe or a broom panicking the whole time. Well, my co-worker said "Oh, I saw him crawling over there (he pointed to a certain spot so many feet away) a couple minutes ago and hurried him along so he wouldnt get stepped on". I could have shot him lol! I noticed my friend, Dodie, comming toward me and thought she was going to step on it, but she bent down, grabed it by the legs and tossed it at me (just joking around) so I turned and hurried as fast as I could away and when i turned to run I ran my knee right into a pipe in my machine. It hurt bad! It was so sore for days and turned blue, black, purple, red and even had a little greenish color to the outsides of it. And it is still there. It doesnt look as bad as it did, but it is there.
Lately my supervisor's son has shown some interest in my friend who also works where I work. The supervisor's son just went from 2nd shift to 1st and has been talking to my friend. Our supervisor doesnt like this much and has been down my friend's back for the past week.......for that particular reason we are thinking. Our supervisor doesnt really like us that much. Me, because Im different and I dont kiss her butt. My friend, Steph, because.....well, Im guessing that our supervisor sees Steph as a weakling. No offence to Steph, but she is weak in some areas when it comes to our supervisor. She just doesnt want to get fired and who can blame her. She has a kid to take care of. She has also been having some major health problems and has had to take time off work because of it. And now since my supervisor's son is showing interest in Steph, the supervisor doesnt like her even more. Her and her son have even talked about it (Ive heared them) and she goes on "well, she has too many health problems. She isnt our religion". Just excusses. Besides, Steph has a boyfriend. Steph has left it up to me to save her. She doesnt want to hurt the son's feelings or be mean so if I notice him talking to her I am innocently going tosay something about her and her boyfriend comming over for a cook-out and hope that works. If the guy starts after me....well, Im single so Im screwed on a boyfriend excuse lol. Ive had one horrible boyfriend and one awful boyfriend so far so Im not really interested right now :)

NEED SOME A/C IN HERE!

Wow, it is around 90 degrees here in ohio, people and I am baking in this house! The heat has just knocked me out. I was supposed to clean up the house today after work, because my Nanny and Papaw (Mum's parents) are going to be here so I started cleaning and I got really hot and over did it and fell asleep on the couch where I was tormented constantly by my brother calling to see if his laundry was dry yet. Mum came home and she was pissed because there was still a little work to be done around the house and I was sleeping. Shes lucky. She got to be in air conditioning all day at her work place. Im stuck in the house (which is like an oven) with no air conditioning and Im slowly cooking plus I got a migrane comming on and thats not cool. I really feel sorry for my dog in this heat. He a little poodle and has that thick, curly poodle wool.....which is getting a bit long and I really need to take him to the groomer and get that cut off. I found my lost snake.......and I feel like an ass lol. I called my brother (who was at his friend's house) and appologized to him and he actually took it very well. I didnt raise his voice or call me names or anything. He was just like "Yeah, thats cool. Dont worry about it. It was nothing". Dad (of all people) found it. Im still not sure as to how exactly it got aout because I make sure that the lid is closed and the rocks I was keeping on the corners of the lid were in place, but it must have just found the tiniest little place to get out of. I was outside on the phone and Mum started yelling "Theres a snake in the bathroom! Come get it!" so I ran into Mum and Dad's bathroom and Dad was standing there pointing at it all like "I was sitting down to use to bathroom and I looked over and I thought it was a rubber snake so I was going to pick it up. Then it moved! What kind of snake is that? He's funny looking". Dad wasnt too upset about the snake. I went out to the pet shop the next day and bought like.....seven locking clips for the tank lid to keep it in place, plus I put some strips of Gorilla Tape on the sides.